Sunday, February 05, 2006
2/05/2006 08:09:00 PM
SOO... does it mean that if i am the youngest, i am not successful?? if i am not working yet, i am not going to make alot of money?? if i am still in school, that means i am useless??
i've been feeling really stressed out recently, cus my family is looking down on me. they think i am useless, not earning money.. majoring in chemistry isnt going to bring me anywhere. i am not going to earn as much as them when i come out to work..
i feel like i have to make sure i become really successful, i have to drive a luxury car.. i ahve to own a huge big house, i have to earn 50K once i get out of school, or else they will laugh at me.. they will look down on me.. they will think i am useless and trash..
i dun like this at all.. i am stressed out.. i am feeling hurt.. i am feeling i am trash.. cus i cant even promise myself i can be that successful right away.. i need time, and they are not giving it to me.. i am cryiung in this heart of mine.. i hate this feeling.. i hate them.. i need encouragement, i need love, i need care.. not them pulling me down.. not them throwing stones at me..
i wan them to Fu*k Off
you make my life perfect-`